Remembrance.

{written Friday the 11th, scheduled post}


Today marks the second year since my dear brother died. I know, I know... you didn't come here to read something sad or depressing...but hey, c 'est la vie {that's life}- isn't it? While we all want life to be full of smiles and glorious happy moments, sometimes there are those incredible painful ones that rip your heart out and although your heart does heal over time, it never becomes whole again.


I've had this impending sadness all week, despite my excitement for my Paris trip. I knew it was coming, I tried to ignore it. But it was inevitable.


I actually cannot believe it has been two years, the full force of that fact hit me last night while standing in the shower and I just stood and let the water rush over me and sobbed for a good solid 5 minutes..

I like to use this time to remember him, his smile, his laugh, the little twinkle in his eye he got when he was up to some joke.
To think about the impact he had on my life.

I think about my dear niece who has spent two years of her little life without her daddy and my sister in law who had to deal with what would of been their 20th wedding anniversary just a few days ago....my heart aches for them.

I miss him so much.

Thank you for reading...